Friday, December 25, 2009

Ikhtiar Tawakkal

i will be off to shah alam at 5.35pm today
this is so nerve wrecking
u don't have the idea
no, no need, don't bother
to all my backbones (u know who u r, ily!), i'm gonna miss u guys a lot
appreciate the supports, drives and motivations so much
i 'bagged' all the advices, the most crucial 'luggage' that i carry first rather than my cheap clothes
phew, at least i have guide whenever i, who aptly influenced by bad ppl lose track in the battlefield
i will try,.. i will.. (God's Willing)


Saturday, December 12, 2009


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Logan Neitzel

Monday, December 7, 2009

Latihan Industri '09/10

Step 1:

  • Layari >> Announcements >> Industrial Training (2010)
  • sila download file2 berkenaan dibawah;
Step 2:

  • Isi i) Application Placement Letter '09/10
ii) Confirmation Letter '09/10

  • Jikalau anda mempunyai 5 company pilihan, sila buat 5 SALINAN!!!
  • Pastu hantar ke company berkenaan
  • Tunggu jawapan dari pihak mereka

Step 3:

  • Selepas mendapat tawaran dari company pilihan anda (TAHNIAH!), sila tunggu sehinggaa...
27 @ 28 DISEMBER 2009!!!!

  • Pada tarikh tersebut, sila tgk2 portal untuk PENDAFTARAN LATIHAN INDUSTRI!!!!
  • Semasa pendaftaran dalam talian a.k.a ONLINE!!! sila daftarkan hanya 1, saya ulang S.A.T.U antara company2 yg telah meng'approve' permohonan anda...
  • that's all (:

p/s tolong sebar2kan kat kengkawan yg lain ok (ingga!) .. berehhh !

ingga -.-

40 Useful Tips For Better Life

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

3. Sleep for at least 7 hours.

4. Live with the 3 E's - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy.

5. Play more games.

6. Read more books than you did last year.

7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.

8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

9. Dream more while you are awake.

10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

11. Drink plenty of water.

12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.

14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

18. Smile and laugh more.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.

23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others'.

24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

25. Forgive every one for every thing.

26. What other people think of you is none of your business.

27. God heals everything.

28. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

29. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Friends will. Stay in touch.

30. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

31. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

32. The best is yet to come.

33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

34. Do the right thing!

35. Call your family often.

36. Your inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

37. Each day give something good to others.

38. Don't over do. Keep your limits.

39. When you awake alive in the morning, thank God for it.

40. Please forward this to everyone you care about.

Sunday, December 6, 2009


yesterday i went out with my cousin;... had so much fun.. i'm fixated over the 'audi mengare' issue.. hahaha..bodo...aih?..nyumpah indah.. i've asked her opinion regarding my hair.. i definitely have no idea what to do with my hair.. i'm about to make it spiky again.. her suggestion was..

K: pakata ko molah kedak jedward..

T: jj...jj..jjj whut??

K: J-E-D-W-A-r-D!.. i think they're twin..

T: O'.. camney rambutnya?

K: google ko nun...

so just now i googled .. hikh.. my ears chiming the way she spelled jedward..

over 3 millions result?? urm.. popular juak.. i never knew.. besala..I ni bab2 artis omputih kurang sket kot.. and i almost melompat as soon as i saw the pic.. err.. i mean their HAIR!

(ngerepak mode) ello kiky! what was on your mind??.. mun aku kurus yet slender, putih that is really putih eah n kachak sikpa.. gila kali mun ku berambut kedak tok di fakulti.. jong2 ada jadi k lab test nanam sayor palak ku.. so my jawapan is "NO WAY!"... enuff with d idea mengarut kita nak alah2.. can i mention 'audi mengare' again.. hahahahaha

**oi2... finally i could see kiky's wearing 4" high heels..yay!.. berkat paksaan aku.. worth the bet that we've done.. ngeh ngeh ngeh...

feel like singing.. di hati ini..sering melakukan la laaa..

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Apology (read this pls)

(to all my friends, pls spare some time to read this..this is specially dedicated for you)

the other day, i decided to stop posting any blog bcz i believe it is time for me to be a lil bit reserve, laid back and having the quality time to the fullest. yes, i really had so much fun lately and enjoyed doing things that i really wanted to do. despite of so many nonsensical stories i heard out there, be it about me or some depressing life stories of ppl that has nothing to do with me but it by the way might give a minute impact to our life. i aint blaming them as their stories, if taken positively capture a mutual scenario that happens in everyone's life. everyone will have problems, everyone will have happy moments, everyone deserves to love and to be loved, everyone needs space for their own. for simplicity's sake, we are equal. however, in my opinion what differentiates us among others is whether it is worth-doing or not. chop. i shall stop as it has come to this point. you must have different definition of 'worth-doing' and so do i. this morning as usual i woke up at 5.30 am. everything was fine til 7.30 am. i wonder after that very few sec, everything seemed wrong. dislike it. it was so unlike the usual days. ironically, every false moments that ive been thru' as if telling me a message that "haaa..what has happened is similar to the ones that u've done to this person'.. the message loops from one incident to another but with different persons. so none in particular, fyi. i couldn't stand as it kept thrusting my small head. i immediately inhale a breath of exasperation. astagfirullahalazim. ive read this one typical but meaningful thought somewhere and it stuck in my head up til now. those who have sinned should repent and seek for Allah's forgiveness. however, i should seek for ppl's forgiveness before Allah would forgive me (when it comes to human-to-human sin). due to this reason i should by now beg some apology if ever i did wrong to you. as far as i remember it could be due to below reasons: (one of these sorrys could be for you none-in-particular)

1. I'm sorry if i always come to you with piles of trouble and seek for your advices. I'd be fine after listening to your advice. but after a few steps away, i go back doing the same mistakes. then i'd come to you again babbling of some mundane problems. again you never give up giving me advices. perhaps you've never shown that you're actually sick of it yet i knew it does make you sick. i really2 thank you for your endless support and advice dear. appreciate it. I'm sorry for burdening your ears.

2. I'm sorry if ever i've promised you something but i didn't keep to my words. i'm not trying to be defensive but i did make an effort to fulfill my promises but maybe due to a few factors, i ended up disobeying it. InshaAllah i try to fulfill it in the near future. I'm sorry.

3. I'm sorry if i ever spoiled any of your relationship by fitting in you guys friendships with any person. i might be the factor you aint that close anymore to your friend. i make friend with anyone and i treat them as nice as how i treat you, equally. in fact, i could treat you more nicely than the 'bestfriend' that you thought i 'rampas' them from you. no. no such thing as 'rampas'. you can get 'em back anytime you want. twist it, i could want you more than i want them. you just dont realise that. I'm sorry.

4. This one is so obvious to whom it may be. I'm sorry if you think I poured sheep shit to your currently break-up pot. there are hearsay i worsen you guys so-called break up hurdles. trust me, eversince you guys tied the knot being the loving birds, i tried not to interfere for the sake of our own good. i stray away from being your roommate to find another peace of mind is one effort how i really want to preserve our friendship. but ironically, despite of all the silent efforts i have done, the ending seems not paid off. Now, if you want me to stay away from your ex-girlfriend, i will. only if that makes you forgive me. I'm sorry former roommate.

5. I'm sorry if ever we used to be that close (not necessarily being a closefriend as long as it is that close) and after several months of being very close, i leave you 'bulat2'. i leave you with question marks.. of which might lead you to being paranoid. this has happened to not only one person, but many persons in my life. i myself don't get the idea why i become like this. i treated you ultimately nice, behaving so sweetly until it rang ppl's misunderstanding alarm and poof! i left you right there. finding someone else and did the same thing to them. i have reasons for that and can we just simply forget about it?. again im sorry my nice friend.

6. I'm sorry if i make friend with your enemy. i'm risking myself to be in this situation. i know. respect your respect towards me, i tried my best to zip my lips from getting into you guys problem. it's so none of my business. what matters is my friendship with you and your enemy. please, if possible i'm not interested to be his/her enemy's enemy. get it? again i'm sorry.

7. it could be other reasons but i could not squeeze my head anymore (fuhh..). if so, i'm sorry for any mistakes that i've done. sorry.


Saturday, November 21, 2009

The Most Awaited Moment

I'm grounded...

by now..

by myself..

save save money...

save save tummy...

save save vocal...

til the mala-dirancang2-plan of the hols...

which is...

KARAOKE!!! ley ole ole oleyy...

bersama siapa??? of cozla b'sama penyanyi lagu2 berunsur nasihat kita iaituu....


*applause and standing ovation* clap clap clap...

siney ky??

sudah tentula



only both of us know...
muahahahaha... grin

let's us sing to the world
baba blacksheep any any wooooo...

"paloi upa daktok..cak gik sora aku.."

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Post rePost

1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
- SPongebob!

3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?
- No. It's over now.

4. Do you take compliments well?
- no. x brp heran..

5. Do you play Sudoku?
- ive tried but im so stupid..haha

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
- bagus bunuh dirik..

7. If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
- my Himalaya serious!

8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
- i dont want to mention... humiliating.

9. Who do you text the most?
- x tentu,, but currently hafi. academic matter.

10. Favorite children’s book?
- Cinderella!!!!!! hahahahah

11. Eye color?
- Kiky ya antu ya kaler nya putih..aku itam.. hehe

12. How tall are you?
- 178cm

13. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
- Do what?

14. Any secret admirers?
- xda

15. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
- when what??

16. Favorite ex..?
- nil

17. Where was the last place you traveled?
- S'pore

18. Do you like mustard?
- Yupp!!!

19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
- E.A.T

21. Do you miss anyone?
- AAAAA hell yeahh!!!! no no no (denial)

22. Can you do splits?
- See me first then u can tell it urself... oh do u mean split hair??

23. What movie do you want to see right now?
- Pisau Cukur againnnn! hahahaha (oh my diane von funsterberg!)

24. What did you do for New Year’s Eve?
- do new year's resolution that is impossible to achieve.

25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
-I didnt watch..

26. Do you own a camera phone?
- Yes.. mak, HTC please?

27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
- she used to be my cheerleader and i bet she can do tumbling!

28. What’s the last letter of your last name?
- N

29. Are you panic?
- When it comes to body weight increment.

31. Do you like care bears?
- im not into kids thingy..

32. What do you buy at the movie?
- two must have things, pop corn n a soda

33. Do you know how to play poker?
- no. i rarely play cards...

34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
- Of course. A must!

35. What do you wear to sleep?
- it can be full attired, it can be with kain pelikat only or a boxer perhaps.

36. Anything big ever happen in your CITY?
- nak ku tauk juak eh..

37. Is your hair straight or curly?
- i have no idea.. straight but ujung's that??

38. Is your tongue pierced?
- Nunggu ku kenak pangkong bapak ku lok...

39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
- unless you could masak them jd satu mknn yg sedap.. boleh jd.

40. Do you like funny or serious people better?
- serious ppl is funny ppl for me..hehe

41. Ever been to L.A.?
- no. hanya mampu melihat gambar mak ku ke cya jak.. tedah..

42. Who is on your mind right now?
- spongebob

43.any plans 4 tonight?
- same as kiky..tido awal n tahan lapar..

44. Whats your fav. song at the moment?
- Note to God by Charice

45. Do you hate chocolate?
- Yes (*denial)

46. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
- body weight.

47. Are you a moody person?
- no.

48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
- the girlfriend needs me to be happy.

49. If you could have any job what would it be?
- err... somebody in the fashion industry..

50. Are you easy to get along with?
- No.
51. What is your favorite time of day?
- xda..
52. Are you generally a happy person?
- Yupp

53. Are you happy now?
- NO!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

How To Get Rid Of One Of Yout Annoying Friends

Retrieved from:

  1. Hang out with your AF (Annoying Friend) a bit less and spend time with your other ones.
  2. Speak about stuff that they don't really care about or don't like, if you're lucky your bud might get rid of you instead. You will look like the idiot, but you will be rid of your annoying friend.
  3. Leave quickly when they appear. If they try to hang out with you just go away and say 'oh sorry I have to go' but don't say 'see you tomorrow' or 'catch you later' otherwise they will think you want to hang out.
  4. Try to get another friend to join you and bring up a topic that the friend you want to talk to knows about, but that the AF doesn't know anything about so they feel left out of the conversation.
  5. Find someone who thinks that your friend is creepy and try to find similarities between the two of you and try to gather more people and win them over with weird things that the annoying friend did. To most this is considered hard gossip, so be subtle by saying things like, "Hey Cheyanne Tolbert, that Sara Smith kid is a real idiot isn't she? In fact, one time...".
  6. Choose interests and discussion that the AF doesn't like. If you and your real friends all hate the annoying friend, you can also choose a topic that the AF knows nothing about and obsess over it. When the AF learns about the topic, switch to something new.
  7. Hang out with people the AF dislikes. This will cause him/her some frustration.
  • Just ignore the AF or pretend they don't exist; that's the best way to say that you dislike someone.
  • Don't bring up conversation with the AF. Then they'll think you like them. Try to stick to simple, yes/no responses.
  • Bother the AF more than they bother you. Eventually they will leave. However, don't be offensive.
  • Just tell the friend you don't want to associate with them because you have a problem trusting people sometimes.
  • Get another friend, make a secret language, talk around the AF in your secret language, it will make him/her feel left out of the conversation.
  • If you are mean to the AF, your other friends may not want to hang out with you.
  • If you are the AF you should find some different friends who does all the above.

GOOD LUCK!! to myself...

Sunday, November 15, 2009

To Kiky Yang Gai With Love!

mok cek mata kau ya... jgn padah aku kau gik mereng..PRAPPPPP!!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Feel Good

Yes yes yes..

i feel good..
really good..

happy hols my friends!


Friday, November 6, 2009


Final Exam Nightmare

I could not stop crying ever since the geotech paper is over. Numerical analysis?


Just now, my friends insisted to accompany her studying structural design... i refuse in a diplomatic way (dlm hati: PERGI MAMPUS!)

I have studied sooooo hard but the soalan was sooooo grrrrrr i couldnt say the word!...


if there is a gleaming knife i would chop chop chop myself now!!!...
do you know what really kills me? what my father would react if i get bad result??? i repetitively say to anyone who knows me that 'my dream is my dad dream'.. frankly, i do not have any particular dream like everyone does.. but i do have something that i like which is to see my parents happy... my parents would be so happy if i could be like what they dream of.. SO, consequently, if i could fulfill my parents dream, i at the same time fulfill my own dream that is to see them happy.

right now my parents are having their honeymoon in China (during my final exam okayyy??...err..nevermine)... they will be back on nov 9th of which the day my final exam ends!.. O sh*t!... i don't know how to tell them that my papers were all terrible where they just get back from their holiday.


Disastrous Year of Degree

It is november right? oo hell yea it is about 1 more month left and 2009 ends. It has been 1 yearrrrr i become so jahil and it is almost 1 year i become someone that is not TOMO. This year contribution: bull.... This year achievement: shit... This year target: BULLSHIT!

Oh my Dior! what on earth i am doing? hello2x!

my result will be sgt terukkkk for the second time okay?? for two semesters? NO WAY!...

i believe there are a lot of factors why i become this horrible.. i guess those who are close to me knowwww it better.. aiyaa guysss... how to bring my spirit back??

i have swallowed a lot of insults, humiliating moments bla bla bla that ive never experienced during my diploma years.. eeeee... x sabar mok balit kuching ngurung dirik ku lam bilit n go eff la org sitok.. yah!

Road to Britain

I suddenly reminded of my decision of studying in UK last year. That day I was so confused.. I was caught in the middle of choosing University of Birmingham or err UITM??? after taking into account (what was on my mind that time i dont know) a few reasons.. n finally i chose err UITM??... Oh now I remember! these are the reasons why i choose Uitm:

BS reason #1: Sambung kat Uitm hanya 2 thn 1/2.. if UK 4 years..

(duhh??... even ko study sesingkat ney pun tp mun tempat nok ko study ya byk hantu2 yg menghalang kau utk berjaya pun sik guna...eventually, nauzubillah laa kau mungkin end up 4 thn juak mun ada paper kau sangkut ka apa)

BS reason #2: Study shah alam cost murah...

(duhh??.. pajak duit ku mengambor abis disitok... mun di uk.. atleast aku boleh belajar berjimat sbb tauk sinun susah mok carik duit... kerja ka.. at least i learn hardship)..

BS reason #3: Ko boleh skor dgn cemerlang di uitm..


*fyi, BS is not stand for British Standard. It is BullShit.. harap maklum..

If i were in Britain now, i could imagine my self alone, jln sorg2.. gago hal kedirik... mun da hal study msg ngn omputih ka polah date kat library (edeh..)..

imagine dudok2 dkt tgh2 padang nok ijo2 baca buku..(again..edeh!)

Masalah aku kinektok aku sik bleh bergaul ngn org nok mengarut palak utak nya.. aku jd mengarut juak.. mun aku bergaul ngn org gai, aku jadi gai juak.. mun di uk.. aku bergaul ngn omputih nok pandey, so aku jd omputih nok pandey2 juak! igt gik dolok.. impian aku..


the damage is done.. sudah2la ... yg aku tauk kinek tok aku nak balit KUCHING!!!!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Back on Track

everything is back to normal...

breath in, breath out


books.. heart u..

my current mantra..

No Ice, No Rice, Go Exercise



Saturday, October 24, 2009


such a relief that contech test is over.
now i can concentrate on geotechnique subject.
i love the subject but it is so susah that i could not catch up until now.
i will try my best.
i will.
eventhough i'm in final exam mode right now,
i could feel that i'm in a freedom state of mind.
i'm free.
regarding my inspiration aka honey bee... everything is fine..
miss honey bee so much.. all we could do right now is just text messaging each other..
most importantly.. i crave for more A's!

that's all..


i love my books...

i love my meja belajar..

i love my territory..

don't bother the messyness...

hey spongebob!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

hey spongebob!

this post is mainly to tell you guys that i love out there that i'm so so happy right now..

i could grab my books like how i used to treat them like my all-time buddy long time ago...

i could get out from bed and go jogging at the park instead..

i could really enjoy my meal time and having beautiful friends around me..

i could wake up in the morning with smile on my face glancing at my crazy roommate..

I could do things that i love without worrying someone could hurt...

I could go to sleep at night with loves loves loves lingering in my heart...ngehhh

for simplicity's sake... I LOVE MY LIFE NOW..

*and i love my honey bee.. u re one of the reason why i struggle for my final exam.. love u my inspirations...

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Know Yourself

I got this from someone's presentation during my english class just now. this guy i knew has very poor command of english language but his presentation contents really impressed me. His topic was veryyy simple which is "How to be Happy" and i listened to him with full of concentration. I quickly jotted down as soon as i encountered these words.

Your mind is vast.
Your heart is wide.
Don't let anyone make you feel small so they can feel Big.
Your power is within you.
You are extraordinary.
Know this.

*btw, referring to my previous post, dont misjudge the word beautiful because my interpretation of beautiful is totally different than what you thought.

Monday, October 19, 2009

the ugly truth

despite of so many beautiful people around me,
why do i have to choose the ugliest ones?...
*now i choose the beautiful path. I won't explain. I guess we both are good enuff to understand sign language. That is what we usually do. Bye you.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Love You Family

It's tearing my heart as i finished reading an email fowarded by my lovely mum. i don't wanna talk more about it, you should go baca and fikir2 la sendiri.

"...While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up a stone and scratched line on the side of the car. In anger, the man took the child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using a wrench. At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures. When the child saw his father.....with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?' The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times. Devastated by his own actions.......sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'. The next day that man committed suicide………

Anger and Love have no limits; choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely life.....

Things are to be used and people are to be loved, But the problem in today's world is that, People are used and things are loved.
During this year, let's be careful to keep this thought in mind: Things are to be used, but People are to be loved ...

Be yourself....This is the only day we HAVE.

Have a nice day.
Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits they become character; Watch your character; it becomes your destiny. I'm glad a friend forwarded this to me as a reminder Stay FAITHFUL and Be GRATEFUL... "


Saturday, October 10, 2009

Tip: Jgn Layan Org Bodoh

serious.. jgn layan.. otherwise you'll be stupid like them.. nak x? of course xnak kan..

kalo ada cerita bodoh..wat x tau

kalo dgr gosip bodoh.. pekak kan telinga..

kalo tgk org bodoh wat benda bodoh.. tutup mata!

kalo diorg cakap bodoh2... senyap jer.. jg layan.. bcoz org bodoh mmg ckp mcm tu..

thx.. tunggu tip seterusnye..

kalo nk sedapkan hati lagi.. nyanyi lagu yg i post kt bwh ni.. tujukan buat die.. senangkan?

selamat mencube!
sape yg ptt pakai baju ni?

Thursday, October 8, 2009

cinta lama

cinta lama..sgt lama... it's too early for me to talk about this.. hehe



Sunday, September 27, 2009


to whom it may concern. hah!

credit: kiky!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Feel Good (realy good)

i love this feeling. love love love it.. i easily ignore when i dont like it. i dont easily feel disturbed if it pleases me.. no.. the only thing i'm afraid of is dat i easily make up my mind.. i aint dat firm yet.. solution for that.. i pray.

"Whatever you have in your mind - forget it; Whatever you have in your hand - give it; Whatever is to be your fate - face it" -Abu Sa'id

credit to:
someone on facebook!

bye bye complains.. hi A!

some lovely raya moments..

Friday, September 18, 2009


lap.. sapu.. ngemop.. ngemop dan ngemop lagi.. yala kerja kamek sehari2 tok.. mun hari raya jak, parents kamek nang dah kontrak kamek kerja ngemas umah luar.. tp puas hati.. dan tok kekepakan aka kepenatan.. dah hepi2 umah bersih.. kamek pun online la.. apa lagi.. update blog!.. n kamek ada browse gambar2 pompuan yg kamek ska.. so now i would like to share the women that i adore.. (rasa molah p.o presentaion bel jak!)

1. Camelia

nya tok nang dr kecik mek minat.. kin lamak kin stail..

2. Kate Moss

mun la dpt jumpa nya tok.. mok mintak sigek baju

3. Nicole Richie

hehe.. kin kurus makin ska!

4. Posh Spice

dr nya zaman gadis rempah dolok mek suka..

5. Emma Watson

miak kecik nok mature

that's all...

nak mandik..


Thursday, September 17, 2009


ive never feel like this eversince a year ago.. i've never feel happy going to the mall and actually see the mall... ive never enjoy having meal with my friends and actually speak to them.. ive never feel grateful to be here and actually treasure that i have a lovely family.. ive never smile like this.. and now it's pure..

as i arrived here in kuching.. ive been contemplating myself and i found out that i've contributed nothing.. null.. maybe my friend is right.. i currently don't have a goal.. when i flashback my diploma years.. i set to have very good grades every semesters.. and i've achieved that.. now, in degree years.. im so busy entertaining something that is not necessary for me.. i overthink it and it drives me to do something that is worthless..

now close eyes..

set a goal..


i always pray to God to show me the path (the good ones of course)... guiding me to achieving that is good for my life and future.. i believe in karma.. life has its own ups and downs.. and now i am undergoing my down year of which i need to find solutions to get up back and the solutions are actually the remedy of self development..

enuff with babbles..
i just have had a sungkey with kiky and yaya.. it was great!..
tomorrow i got to wake up early to help my mum to do the household chores..
oh i never feel this great!


Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Yoyo feeling

yes..i am still battling with the darker identity of me. the one who tends to dig every old trashes that ive burried long time ago and it now begins to contaminate the whiter identity that ive worked so hard to establish it. n im sick of concealing the skull and pretending by telling ppl that my wardrobe contains a bunch of lilies where as a matter of i don't think i have to proceed with that..

pls dont get me wrong... i aint a villain yet not a pixie... for those who are close to me, they do know what i mean..if it happens i die early, don't bother to make an autobiography of me, don't even entertain those ppl who wanted to make tribute of me..edeh..rasa primadona sa!

btw, my progress =


75% calm n subtle
15% workhard towards my study
8% happy
2% of H6N6 (a dangerous virus mutated from a combination of human n seladang!)

i up till now couldn't discover vaccin for that ..

i should stop by now!!!!

otherwise ill go overboard babbling about seladang!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Moon, Tell em' I Miss Them

I feel insecure now..

I need my Family to look after me (because i love when they still treat me like a child)...

I crave and feel like eating mee kolok n nescafe peng so badly..

I need Mijie to drive me to satok n listen to me babbling all over the way..

I need someone who is rational enuff to be my 'psychiatrist' n to listen to me singing out loud..

therefore, i need Kiky pls pls pls?

I Love You All...

Sunday, August 23, 2009


I hate being stupid..

I used to be stupid..

I don't want to be stupid again...

but now that stupid seems to haunt me again...

pls stupid go go away..

i should stop doing stupid things..

so that i won't be stupid.. yet again..

only if i can shoo that stupid animal

Sunday, July 19, 2009

rerama in my tummy


currently my family and i are in plaza premium lounge, changi airport. waiting for our flight which will be at 12.50p.m experiencing the beautiful view of the singapore airport and the airplane takes off while sipping hot tea. this lounge provides a lot of entertainment like jam studio, movie theatre yada yada yada but itu semua tidak menarik minat saya. this is due to d reason that rerama spread its wings beautifully in my awful belly. i cant wait to see mekkah. i cant wait to berdoa and my doa list seems to become more bykkk.. i have about 118 doas to say. to all my friends who have requested their doa, dont worry ill try my best to 'email' it to GOD. all you can do is just pray out there so dat i can beribadah dalam tenang.

back to my umrah updates, the journey to jeddah will take about 12 hours time which means we're expected to arrive at 12 midnight m'sia time. before that we will transit at abu dhabi for 45 mins to reload the petrol. sampai sini sahaja.. insyaAllah if there are internet access there in makkah insyaAllah i will do some updates. otherwise, just wait till i be back in kuching in july 31st.

bye2.. tchuss!


Saturday, July 18, 2009


in a few hours time, ill be off to do umrah.. oleh itu, saya harus menjaga tingkah laku, pandangan dan suma la.. phm2la.. hehe...

saya ingin memohon maaf dan ampun kepada semua sekiranya saya ada membuat salah dgn anda semua.. saya mohon restu supaya dipermudahkan untuk beribadah sesampai di tanah suci kelak..

fuhh.. nabes.

Thursday, July 2, 2009


Mulut ku tersenyum lebar tak henti2 sambil tangan ku ketap ketup ketap ketup menaip dengan penuh mengada2 walaupun badan ku lenguh seiring dgn kakiku yang dah mcm nak tertanggal palak tut.. aku gagahi jua untuk menaip kerana aku mempunyai satu berita gembira untuk disampaikan...

dengan penuh bangga nya aku mengumumkan... drum roll plss...

aku telah LULUS ujian memandu motosikal!!!!!!

ini adlah ujian aku yg kedua selepas aku gagal dlm ujian pertama minggu lepas... muka ku merut seribu bahasa semenjak hari tersebut... pg ini aku bgn dgn tiada perasaan.. sesampai ke tempat ujian. masih.. tiada perasaan.. tunggu. tunggu dan terus menunggu.. tibalah masa untk ujian.. hati ku mula nabes.. kuang kuit masuk jamban (sorii.. saya mencampuradukkn bhs melayu dgn s'wak bg menghasilkan mood yg lebih dramatik).. palak tut aku bergegar.. nang semakei juak rasa palak tut saya.. tunggu dan terus menunggu.. AMIRUDEAN BIN SHAFIEE!!! JPJ itu menunggah nama ku dgn penuh lagak, eksen dan sabest..

dgn penuh stail aku... vroOM vroom vroOOmmm...
signal light kiri? checked!
signal light kanan? checked!
lampu depan n blkg? checked!
AMIRRRR.. JALANNN!!!.. aku tersentap dgn teraisan jpj..
maka aku terus jalann..

pusingan lapan (8)... slow.. slow...

selepas itu.. skrew palak tut makin goyah.. (ref: palak tut = kepala lutut!!)
tibala saat2 paling puaka...

TITI! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAA...
jpj itu memastikan nama aku.. kitak amirudean nak??..
dgn lafaz bismillah.. aku mengatur bontot ku yang besar.. pastikan perut ku yg boroi in position supaya tidak menganggu keseimbangan moto ku.. mata ku yg rabun ku buka celang2,...
brepp brepp broommmm...
pap! naik atas titi,,,
steadayyy.. sampai ke tengah2 titi...
tiba2 aku hilang kawalan... moto aku statik seketika! nafas aku terhenti... suasana pun tetiba terhenti spt dlm cerita the matrix.. aku hanya dpt rskn jantungku berdetak detup..
aku naBes!!!.. dgn penuh pro aku mengawal.. aku risau terlalu lama berhenti boleh memungkinkan aku untuk jatuh.. kalo terpress lebih, juga boleh jatuh...
aku bermain dgn mantra.. HOLD TOMO HOLD!!!! (aku terigt kata2 kazen ku.. kak senduk 2).. aku motivasikan lagi dgn IM NOT GONNA FALL THIS 3x!!.. aku mengawal sambil mengoyang2kan handle dan rupa ku seolah2 berjoget diatas titi tu.. lebih2 lagi dgn adanya bonjolan lemak.. lagi mencantikkan gerak tari joget ku.. selepas aku berjoget sepenuh hati, aku hampir ke hujung titi.. aku bertambah konfiden.. dan.. yessS! lepas!!! aku akhiri acara titi gimnastik tersebut dengan lenggangan bontot ala2 poyo.. edeh.. aku gai..

aku sgt gembiraaa... alhamdulillah.. aku melepasi halangan2 seterusnya dgn ilek dan steaday!


sudah 3 minggu muka ku mencuka dek asyik terfikirkan masalah moto... hoho.. skrg aku sgt gembira.. moto pun sudah dibeli dan sedang menunggu ku di pusat komersil shah alam.. i can't wait to see my baby! hoho...

so now im officially a rider... terima kasih kepada semua..

ok.. sampai sini sahaja..

neutral.. gear 1.. gear 2.. VROOOOMMM!!!

siapa nak tumpang ANGKAT TANGAN!!!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Cerita Memalukan

Aku nak madah.. aku malu berkawan ngn...


sbb nya *gemok*

yajak... p/s try to read between the line

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

choke of failure

i don't really wanna talk about this.. i try to be calm.. as if nothing happens.. as if everything is gonna be alright.. as if the problems will be resolved on its own no matter how bad it is...

but sometimes i realize, how long i have to deny every problems that come to me.. how long i have to rationalize things without actually work on it.. and how long i have to stay like this??

i remember once i used to be a well-motivated tomo... the one who always takes problems as challenges.. the one who always thinks positive.. the one who always move forward.. always eager to help, encourage, inspire with good words and spread positive aura to his friends, family, ppl. pls dont get me wrong.. im not trying to angkat my own bakul, im not saying that im that type, but i always WANTED TO BE that type of person.. pls.. dont get me wrong.

now everything is different.. i have changed a lot... and i dislike this situation..
i couldn't rationalize things better, i couldnt tolerate with any circumstances that come to me, i couldnt focus to the goal that i want to achieve...

simple example... the driving class... before this, when i do things, i am always full of enthusiasm.. and always end up with a good result.. the process was easy and clear. it's rarely happen to me that i fail of anything that i do.. now it's different.. during the driving class., i often fail to get through the titi part.. it sounds simple but i bet you it wasn't as easy as what u thought. look! im even sounded negatively in my writings!!! why not i say "even though it looks hard, sooner or later you can do it if u put more effort on it" instead of what i have said to you just recently.. f*ck off!.. ( and i swear a lot too now)..

consequently, i am now trying to find a peaceful state of mind as i am sick of failure already.. a few hours to go, the result of sem 1 will be out.. again.. i have to face more and more failures.. gosh.. im sooo failure-phobic..

List of Failures:
1. I fail a lot in my previous study

2. I fail to manage my money wisely where now im totally broke in return

3. I fail to win my friend's emotion and now i feel like im losing them one by one.

4. I fail to lose weight. This is a serious matter. For the sake of my mum.

5. I fail to convince my parents that im STILL a good son and now my parents seems neglecting me and tired of preaching too much like "tomo! gi semayang!" "tomo! jgn ngandor! "tomo! pergi cycling". Now, after we went back from kl for convo, i never heard of them shouting like that anymore. Is that a good sign?

6. I fail to pass the titi part . again n again.


I can't stand it anymore..

all i can do is pray to GOD, longing for HIS hidayah.. and I want to be better.. a lil bit..

at least

tuka ajaklah nama jadi Amirufail bin Shafiee.. the 'dean' seems not workable anymore.

Saturday, May 30, 2009


from now on, aku coba utk serius berdiet.. lose weight.. i mean.. lose fat to be exact..
i give myself

6 weeks!!!

mun sik menjadi..g mampus!


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Belajar Motosikal

Today is Wednesday.. im suppose to practice maneuvering a motorcycle.. but i didnt show up because im malas.. malas mok menghitamkan dirik tgh2 panas lebih2 lagi majlis konvokesyen is just around the corner.. fine.. good reason.. (padah jak nang malas)..

okla.. here's the main reason.. i am feeling a lil bit let down because of the titi part.. eeee suck-it nya ati when it comes to that part.. ive tried a few attempt (beribu2 kali adala) but i only succeed a few times.. its like 10:2... cukupla.. im kinda sick of failure already.. enuff with the soO many papers i failed this semester.. major turned off.

for the titi part.. u have to pass the titi for not less than 7 secs.. doesnt that sound easy? tp kenak aku x lepas2!.. i decide to take the JPJ test this forthcoming june 11th but since I am still so bodoh how could i take the test?


im not gonna fail this one!

guys.. pray for my success k.. so do I.. ill pray for you as well...


Inila dia titi itu.. jeles nya org ya boleh lepas dgn rileknya!

find the red spot.. haha.. helmet itu saya pakai.. BERBAU!

good enuff? lu pikir la sendreyyy...

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Tag: My Name is...

ok.. Ive been tagged.. by my 'rival'.. hoho.. bukan real rival taw.. kitorg men game ala2 'The BIGGEST Loser'.. kire perlawanan cara sihat la... hahahahah... It was her idea anyway.. well for me.. Bring It On!!!.. hahaha.. chill2 puan Kay.. la la la.. *hugz*

So, these are the things dat i need to do.. another assignment from pn Kay.. (reminded of the One day in a life of a project manager ones.. the directions were very precise n particular.. cool)

1. Upload the pic related to your it building name, street name, or even your handwriting written your name..
2 Post in your blog-how u get your name?
3. Tag at least 7 people.

now, here there are...

1. Upload the pic related to my name:

I simply googled 'tomo'.. n these pics popped out...

cute dough.. but the doggies are.. err..

tomo is not neccessarily a girl's name!

a restaurant..

again.. x abes2 psl makan.. =(

i guess no 88 suits it best.. hoh

and this??? NO!

what a heckkkk!!!! *goosebumped*

2. How did I get My name:

Everyone has been wondering, why Tomo?? me neither dont have d idea.. there were a multitude of versions about the origin of tomo's name..
i. My mak said dat when I was a child, i often said 'sumitomo' sempena nama salah satu bulldozer during dat time.
ii. on d other hand, my uncle used to call me tomoi just becoz of he had attracted to one tinju story from thailand.. huh??

whatever it is.. i like d name so much.. for me it sounds unique.. edeh.. for me la!

and in 90's.. what really pissed me off was when there was a band (typical kpg band.. no offence org kpg!) and the vocalist is TOMOK!!!!! uwaaaa.... since then, my fren always make fool of my name by calling me tomok.. ouh pls!! it's tomo.. i repeat TOMO (with no 'K'.. whoOps.. hahaha.. marah my lecturer ehh.. kidding).. tp xpa2.. the vocalist is even a millionaire now kan? hahahah.. bagus2..

3. Tag at least 7 people. (again pn. why 7? hoho..)

these are my choices.. amongst the bloggers laa...

1. Ashairi
2. Zulzahar
3. Mijie
4. Arriel
5. Nady
6. NN
7. s7upid

Saturday, May 23, 2009

World Harvest Festival 2009

Belom mandik.. just went back from Kampung Budaya Sarawak..

5 STARS!! the event was spectacular! great! awesome!.. damn.. no wonder why this event is one of the most awaited event besides Rainforest Music Festival.. People is like from everywhere!..

the musical play of 'Impang Impang' awed the audiences with such a world class performance... the stage was soO real mann.. they used real props e.g the ground, the longhouse and the play was set next to real river!... the audiences really enjoyed eventhough they had to sit on the ground.. that's fine as we can really feel the vibe of the panorama..

after the play was the Miss Fair & Lovely event.. Ok.. Quiet good then.. My Aunt GFF's anak got 2nd runner up.. pretty cool huh... boleh tumpang glamer sekaki.. the winner boleh tahan la lawa but honestly my aunty is the one who really deserves the crown more! whoOPs~

Sitok adala gambar sikit2.. dont expect high quality like DSLR (betol ka?).. i just use camera phone.. boleh la survive juak.. enjoy!

My Aunties and I *wink*

The Impang Impang Play

semasa acara F&F berlangsung

dan pemenang nya adalh... *drum roll*....ME!

the next Datin Diaries... perhaps?

My new friend!!! hoho

Camelia is Cool

I just went back from the market.. buying all those dapur stuffs.. and what makes me so happy today was my mak bapak brought me to kafe haji Salleh to eat Mee SAPI!.. mbekk mbekk..betol ka? waaa... ive been craving for mee sapi hj salleh*yeah it is one of the well known eating place in kuching. u shud try 2x* like since a week ago despite of fighting with myself not to eat, not to eat and eat and eat... hoh *soft voice*... back form market, i straight away took ablution and semayang.


oh i just remember that this evening i need to accompany my aunt to Kampung Budaya Sarawak to watch Miss Fair & Lovely. Darn! beauty pageant?.. no no NO!... i hate it when i have to dump myself in a boring situation in order to jaga hati org.. nah!.. for the sake of my aunt, xpala.. i cant imagine where i have to sit there and watch ladies in Ibanese costume giggling their butts gedik2 on the runway and pretending like the next Paris Hilton aka PRETENTIOUS BIMBO!... n what really suxes me when there is a Q&A session.. ouh.. i bet there will be 98% of them could not answer the so-called-world-peace questions... otherwise they could end up with safe and stereotype answer like "________________________" you might know the answer aite? ... so i have a back up plan.. I need to reload my long remain unattended phone and start texting my friends.. who is that 'lucky' friend? we'll see.. me neither dont have the idea..*wink*..

pergi sana pun sbb i got free ticket as my aunt is one of the VIP because her GFF's anak is participating in.. what a HUGE deal huh.. n apa kena mengena ngn aku? im an engineer okayyyy...

what do i have to wear huh? another problem.. dem.
(GOSIP: last night i went to my aunt's house and discovered there was a fancy and 'benin2' pink baju kurung hung on the wall.. mesti k nya gi sia.. adoiii.. silau2! shhh)

Friday, May 22, 2009

Thumbs Up to Sophie Kinsella!

It is 30 mins past my bedtime.. I could not sleep.. Yes.. I'm fixated over the movie that i watched recently... oh how I loveeeeEEE Sophie's Confession of a Shopaholic. Love it.. LOVE IT!..

I knew about the book since my friend, Bear *u'd not believe dat dis guy introduced me the book becz his physic is sooO unlike it* excitingly introduced it to me 2 years back. At first, I was a little bit reluctant. Yeah, i hate readings.. if u give me any book, it might remain under my pillow for decades!.. due to his respect, nak jaga hati..I eventually brought back the book to kuching. STILL! I didn't read the book. one day, happenedly my mak saw the book. n without my consent, grr.. she brought and lay down and read the book... i guess she were utterly bored that time.

after a few mins, i heard her voice chimed, sounds a lil bit of complaint " buku apa tok..x best! pasal org shopping2 ajak".. *sigh*

and after a few secs.. she was LAUGHING OUT LOUD! eik?? tdk komplen sik bes..

long story short.. she wre stucked with the book n finally gave kudos to the book. mm.. pretty cool huh..

And early this year, i am mentioned that there will be a movie of COAS.. ouh.. sounded great!.. I must watch.. watch.. watch!!!... it features Isla Fisher.. sorry.. since I dont really watch TV.. so the name is unfamiliar to me.. Gosh!.. the movie is sanGat best!!!... 5 stars.. blink. blink. blink.. i went watching the movie with lee.. at first, i was a bit pesimistic since lee seems a guy that does not interested with this kind of pinky-stuff of movie.. I was wrong.. he loved it.. can u just imagine.. if he loves the movie, then ill love the movie 10000 times MORE!... ouh sgt best...

and fyi, just now was my 198498246245836245th of watching the movie.. i could even remember the dialog.. hoho.. when i get older.. i will tell my anak anak that this is my favourite movie after THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA. just like what my mak said how she loves PRETTY WOMAN by Julia Roberts so much..

here is the plot synopsis of the stroy...

"Based on the books "Confessions of a Shopaholic" and "Shopaholic Takes Manhattan" by Sophie Kinsella. Rebecca Bloomwood (Isla Fisher) is a 25 year old who lives with her best friend Suze (Krysten Ritter) in Suze's flat (paying her friend rent that is well below market value), in a trendy part of town. Rebecca has a very boring job writing for a financial magazine. She has a shopping addiction and her crap job doesn't pay enough. Her bills are piling up, so she tries cutting back (complete fiasco), then she tries making more money (another fiasco). Eventually, Becky discovers a story that she is truly invested in. Exposing the story gets the attention of a colleague that she hasn't quite figured out yet. Some drama ensues as she snags the guy, and she attempts to pay off her ever-growing debt. "

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Good Luck Hafiz AF7!

Tick tock tick tock..The clock is ticking languorously... waiting till d alarming moment.. from this second, it is 2 hours 37 mins and13 secs left to the Akademi Fantasia 7 Finals. Frankly, i could see this season of akademi fantasia is quiet interesting. i mean, i can say all those finalist have their own specialties. they are stylish, their musics are fresh, they have their own voice and style of singing. Personally, i find im more interested with Hafiz. I can say that im his silent fan (faham2 sendiri la). No offence to aril's, akim's yazid's as well as isma's fan. I love hafiz's vocal, his humbleness and his up bringing. Couldnt forget his remarkable performance when he sang Lagu Kita and lately, I believe I Can Fly. If I were there, I would honor him wit standing obviation. If I could fly, i fly!... hehe.. i think it's enuff here. To hafiz and his supportive family, GOOD LUCK!!!

btw, i guess everyone has their own choices. And this is mine;

2. Akim
3. Aril
4. Isma
5. Yazid

Let's everyone support hafiz!.. Peace.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Sotong Goreng Spoiled My Day

hello u olz! whoops.. da cam azwan ali jerk.. h0h0..
btw.. i guess this is my 1st entry for my new blog. yes,. it's new outta so many blog that ive made n destroyed. dont get me wrong. i deleted my previous blog not becoz of i hv a new resolution (i bet this is a stereotype reason 4 bloggers that create new blog.. wtever). the main reason why i create a new blog is because i think that my previous blog's URL was not that practical or blogger-friendly ( it was it sounded complicated aite?.. so now i have new blog add and after cracking my head for a few mins.. i eventualy found my new blog add.. tada!


it resembles my two names which are amir + tomo = amitomo..

ok.. 4 this entry.. i start wit simple issue.. ever wondered why this entry entitled Sotong Goreng?
hoho.. ive just had my lunch wit my family.. went back from Jumaat prayer.. in my heart plays dum dum dum weary mantra saying "dont eat, dont eat, DONT EAT!!!".. it was a dugaan u know when u have to fight wit urself in order to avoid sumthing that u love. like me, i love eating mann..

n as soon as i reach home.. i asked myself dont go to dapur.. tp?.. tp?.. TP?... PERGI JUGAK!...
n u know what I saw???

SOTONG GORENG!!!!!!!!! oh geram nya saya ngn mak saya...

dahla BESAR!.. goreng kunyit plak tu! dan dan dan.. TELUR sotong tu terkeluar2... dem!


i stayed intact.. allowing the situation to make d decision.. my mind n heart couldnt rationalize.. they were suddenly 'bongok' n senyap as if membenarkan satan to influence me to spoil my diet..

ok... 1st thing happened..

my brother adie shouted "tomo! saya kaut nasi k?" i replied "ok" *soft voice*

grr.. geramnya.. why didnt he ask me either i want to eat or not instead of telling me he wanted to kaut nasi as if saya mmg plan nak majoh(makan)?.. *fyi, he knows im on diet*

2nd thing occured..

my mak said "waa.. sapa cubit telur sotong tok??" sarcasmly..grr.. *it was me!!! because the telur was so mouthwatering i couldnt resist!*...

my mak straight away called "TOMO! makan!".. eik.. bukan nya ka madah nya soh aku diet?!


suddenly i see myself in front of the nasi with my straight face.. pak mak tersenyum menyindir...

wahh... lepas tu.. adoii... muahh!! sedap.. wala!



esok masih ada <----- this is one of the reason why fat ppl failed to lose weight!

ngak pa2..
dah berlaku nak wat caner...

tgh2 makan.. my mum suddenly talked to my dad... " aku rs kita ptt beli weighing scale. we need to monitor tomo's weight" gulpp!.. my dad nodded. agreed.

n my mak said to me... "tomo, if u could lose 3kg, i give u RM50.. 3kg jak cukupla"...


is she sure of wht she said...

i took it negatively as i tot she tot that it is like impossible 4 me to lose ONLY 3kg!

ok ok..fine.. we'll see...

ok guys..

from this entry onwards.. we'll see if i could lose 3kg!.. ill fight 4 that RM50 sbb skunk pun i tgh broke.. huahauauha...

bye2.. love u olz..