Thursday, September 2, 2010

Dream

Ill be graduating in less than a year. So a lot of ppl out there dah tanya2 what I'm gonna do next?

kerja? master? kerja? master? kerja? kerja? kerja???


so it's literally been a tiring question to answer as i would reply with a very long explanation. I ain't no ordinary person with extraordinary target. For instance, If someone would answer.

A. Kerja. Most of ppl tend to aim for high-paid job, high class position with high level of standard of living. That would include high profile lifestyle. Luxurious cars, house, no more kopi cap kapal api.. teh wangi seringgit 2.. they are right.. no wrong.. as it is all about choices..

For me, personally, i rather opt for a more reserved life after this. I just can't wait to go to work, earn a lil money for a start, save then enjoy as long as it does not exceed my capabilities... I missed my home... I want to get back living in my home of which i think more relaxing.. that is so me.. doing what ive been dreaming before this like going to music class, working out without worrying with piles of assignments on my small table. I believe... i really believe that this would be my last chance to appreciate scenario like that because as i turn 30s, no more such things as my mentality should be more matured.. plus, my parents get older. they have been raising me up for 24 years without any failure so what should i give in return? this is the time to give back.. One day they will go, and i don't want to be regret for not able to give back in return. After they go, thennn i'd consider what i should do next my way... i still have a long way to go (inshaAllah).. so for the time being, let me fulfill what they want, what they love. I don't agree the idea that the parents have been sacrificing a lot for their children, succeed in developing their children as a success 'somebody'... but towards the end, their so-called success children simply work far away neglecting their(parents) welfare. That's not a FAIR investment!.. parents brought us up to be a successful person, mentally and EMOTIONALLY, so that we could give something in return.. That 'something in return' could be strong personality and intelligence of which "being grateful, give and take" quality counted in!

Yes i do have big dreams like working in high class company like Sime Darby, pursuing my master at Imperial College yada3... but i really need to hold that for a while to give way for matters mentioned earlier... We people could die anytime, if I die young, I rather die not doing something I love but being blessed by my parents than die doing I love w/o being blessed by my parents. Most ppl believe life afta death, soO, why not we aim for higher target that is eternal? remember, God will not bless us until our parents bless us first..

Look, a long explanation right. You might wonder, what is the purpose of me saying all this stuff. The long explanation is the answer for the following possible questions;

"Why do you choose to work in Kuching?"

"Why do you choose to live in suburb?"

"Why do you choose to work first as the opportunity to pursue your master is wide open?"

and any relevant question.