My name is not Sunshine Corazon

This is a blog of a boy who prioritizes education in his life...

I really want to score all papers this semester. Despite of so many obstacles, sometimes I realize I should cherish this very moment as it is only less than half year left to graduation. I do not want to be regret for not striving my very best because the one that is fixed will be my transcript. Remain unalterable. Not fb(cliche), not my pimples, not even the karaoke microphone(hehe). Of course I want my transcript to have more than 90% As! At the time being, I need to be realistic that my first page of transcript will be effing horrible! C grade somehow irritates my eyes what more to say my heart honayy. The next page? disco superfly! weee.. inshaAllah. So, I want to cherish this moment by studying, memorizing and eating (aik?)...escapism.. hehe bye.




footnote Pain is temporary, Glory is forever (:

blossom

"I have decided to stick with love.

Hate is too great a burden to bear"

-Martin Luther King Jr.

I put my fav fresh lily on my table hoping it could radiate positive aura to me. I hate hatred.. human is too sacred to be hated.

i love my life

a few of my friends started complaining my weight gain... some said i look like gummy bears.. when i walk, my bulging fat seems dancing with me...so, yesterday i went jogging.. half and hours only.. today i did not..... my muscles need rest... but my stomach was screaming for chocolate.. plus, i feel that eating is the only medium for me to enjoy life..i succumbed to temptations and bought 2 bars of chocolate. enuff said.


*is currently snacking cadbury picnic..

**i will try to eat in moderation next time.. yes until i see foods like shit.. not before i see you like cheeseburger..


dieting is complicated. enuff said square.

random

my lecturers said, "Practice Makes Perfect"

but my teachers said, "Nobody's Perfect"

should I continue practicing?

my friends said, Sheesshh your flabby tummy!

so i went exercising, lost a lil pound and then they said,

we like the old you, don't change we like the way you are..

so shall I continue jogging every evening?

maturity

I can say that this time i able to control my childish behavior compared to myself last year.

I have tried to minimize complaining and 'mengadu'ing small problems at my parents, my family, my friends.

I am 24 y.o so I shall learn how to make my own decision. I am a man, a man should know how to lead, and a leader must be brave in making decision.

Now I realized that, i have to meet a few wrong ones before i could find the right ones so that i could appreciate those right ones.

I'm in a process of finding the right job to do after i graduate. I need to make the right decision because I do not want to end up doing works that i do not like.

It is such a waste to have headache on matters that are out of my main goals as it could solely distract me away from the track to reaching my goal. So be focus!

I'm so thankful for what i have now but i don't deny to be hardworking because i believe that the 'process to' what i do is all that important matter. not the final result.

My weakness now is I hardly say NO to certain unnecessary 'item' or 'matter' or 'anything under the roof'. I will work on it.

Some ppl might not realize that there is some changes in me. It could be offensive for those who take it negatively, it could be something that should be proud for those who see it optimistically.

oh, i wanna post the pic of me during the dean's award ceremony. Not to show off, but it is more for future reference. Well, this pic explains a lot on the ups and downs that Ive been through.

surprise party from iman..thans man! haha

Another emo post

I have an unpleasant feeling now.. feelings of insecurity, anger.oh sucks.. yes i know that writing such post shows how lame am I.. it is not a manly thing to show weaknesses to the public but as a normal human being i do have feeling to take care of. i have this one weakness that i really don't like and i personally think that this kind of weakness is not necessary to me. i'm very fragile when it comes to a relationship. i might look friendly,but to be closed to me, to get to know my personal life is not that easy. Ok fullstop. that is not the core of the issue. the issue now is i have a behavior of getting freak out when i see my friends compromising with someone that i don't like. even if it only involves a small matter like borrowing eraser, ill be freaking out so badly.. what more if they talk posting comments on fb lepak in mamak!.. there you go, i'll create dramas and this world will be effing chaos...ahh.. sounds lame right?? and just now, the same situation happened. by the way, this time i stayed calm and in control. but my heart was like beating so rapidly i couldnt tolerate then i asked my friend "if you were me, will you show your jealousy to your another friend yada3..." and he simply replied "tak. aku x amik pusing pun.pergi mampos la".. oh, that easy huh? then i texted my female friend asking the same question and she replied almost the same! she said it is not worth me and my family at all so why should i care? betul jugak... my degree of freakness was slowly plummeting then... oh good.. good to have a friend who has a lil bit sense of denial... palak simple org s'wak madah... and now i'm posting this blog. rasa2 korunk I dah get rid of it ka belom? -.-