Thursday, March 18, 2010

can i leave this blank?

mmm... my hand is actually trembling, i'm slightly shivering. i am not sure whether i should proceed this blogging thingy. mmm... there are reasons why i'm kind of hesitate errr mmm i'm totally LOST!

ok... 1st thing 1st.. so far.. I'm good.. really good. baru abis cover maths becos tomorrow i got maths test 2.. the topics covered quiet susah.. woooorrrrieed because i was doing a bit well for test 1, able to make the lecturer smile. now, i'm kinda worried that i would end up with frustration for this test 2. mmm.. inshaAllah and hopefully boleh lah! TOMO BOLEH! hehehe..edeh...

mm... the reason why i'm afraid of blogging lately is that i'm not sure whether telling my condition, what am i doing yada3 really a good idea. nowadays, i prefer to be introvert. i rather keep things to myself. sekarangg,, saya sudah tidak peduli cakap org lain.. i mean cakap2 yg berbaur negatif la (now suddenly my cousin kiky appears in my mind.)... i have one habit.. good habit i guess... i love to observe people behaviour.. (naaa,, i dont curik your words aaa.. it does happen to me too..haha!)... whenever people try to distract me, annoy me and sewaktu dgnnya, i will keep my mouth shut, listen and just watch their very funny behaviour... it is as if i'm watching raja lawak.. aih! raja lawak indah... the climax is when they realize that their distractions are not menjadi because i dont respond and stay intact...hahahahah.. afew secs afta dat, i simply chow with a grin in my face.. hoho... eff you!.. lam hati la.. ngehhh..


now i dont have to pretend to be somebody else, pretend that i'm happy of which sebenarnya i'm not, im comfortable with my current friends, they allow me to be myself... i can do whatever i like to do, tanpa ada mata mata yang menyibuk... hehhe... i really hope that im istiqomah this time.. edeh... errr..wait.. now i start to be really worried.. afta telling you all this stuffs.. will everything be the same afta this few secs?? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa... nauzubillahhiminzalik.

8 comments:

Aiman Ariffin said...

hey you mr. glad to hear ure being confident with ur test. try ur best for the 2nd one ya.

abt the blogging thing. Just make it simple. You blog probably just to let ur worries off your chest. 2ndly maybe for ur friends to keep updated with urself.

what im trying to say is, just erase the serious thoughts.

just blog when u feel like to and dont blog if u dont feel like to.

i wud prefer u blog tho. huhu i love your writtigs

Tomo said...

aimannnnnn!!!! really appreciate is so much!... hahaha..hey i miss u la... btw, i love ur writing more than i love mine.. hehe..

Kiky Kirina Abdillah Zainie said...

We're in the same boat cuzen.haha

especially the part when you said,

"the climax is when they realize that their distractions are not menjadi because i dont respond and stay intact...hahahahah.. afew secs afta dat, i simply chow with a grin in my face.. hoho... eff you!.."
lol.
so true.
but in my case, I'll spit rite out to that person's face.

Tomo said...

kiky, i wish i could! but if i do so, my saliva will be all over the place here in my house! hohoho.. yalah..dah nangga muka nya hari2?.. hahahaha...

udu said...

Whose muka that you want to get rid of. You know that i knew. Afterall, life isn't easy amir, especially living in an environment that i'd personally describe as 'meng-angolkan'. I second you on being intact and obeservant as it makes you wiser and in actual fact, smarter! Subscribe yourself to positiveness and most importanly ISTIQAMAH & WASATIAH. If the things do not go the way you wanted it to be, avoid the effin.. words and complaining, do COMPROMISE Instead! Sure u'll be having a good life. Aku sehabis paham mena situasi ko nektok as aku pun nektok berada dalam kelompok org2 yang have an intolerable vanity. Take care dude. All the best to you

SeOuL said...

im giving u this - E,I,L,N,S&T.

Can u deal with it? Of crse i can...lolx
be SILENT, just LISTEN!

Tomo said...

udu: before that, nakpa nama kah nama udu??! hahahaha.. btw, ure rite.. i miss you ngek... tp sekpa la... ada hikmah kau ditikam jauh nun di sudan nun.. at this phase, mungkin Allah mok aku independent now.. sik la setiappp minggu i brag about problem ngn kau... tp bila la ko mok balit sitok gik..isk2..


8eoul: yeahh2.. hahahah... the power of listening ang ignoring! hahahaha


im so grateful to have such a brilliant, smart yet fantastic ppl like you guys! thanx for being supportive.. i will remember you guys till death... xoxo tomo

udu said...

aku sik tauk juak knak tetiba namaya.... berayi aku ngan kawu. yalah kata org swak...kasih jauh.mun dah selalu nemu, aku tok pakey ditampar kawu ajak... apa2, kita kawan dunia akhirat. mena kata bang e ko.. semayang jgn tinggal. nok ya jak penyelamat kita.